Do I Want To Eat? – My Zero to Self Employed Mantra
I then realised that there may be people who might benefit from my thoughts about what I went through in order to create what I would consider is a self sustaining business.
My motivating question to myself along the way was –
“Do I want to eat?”
Perhaps not a great sentence to say now that I am a Meta-Health Practitioner, and I understand more, it certainly would create a reaction in my liver, which responds to survival mentality.
But not being able to put food on the table is motivation enough, and my liver might have to take a back seat for a while.
Dealing With Discomfort
One situation I see are the healers who have other means of financial support, they may not rely on an income from healing, so they think that the discomfort from putting themselves out there can be healed, then they will feel more confident, and then they may not feel so scared about taking action.
But then crunch day never comes.
There’s always going to be discomfort. After all we are human, we will always have fears and worries about being out of our comfort zone.
Shaking In My Boots
In my early days doing psychic readings, I would be on the phone and I would have to sit on the ground, clinging to anything that felt solid, as I was so nervous I had to do anything that would calm me. Terrified nothing would come through for me, petrified of a blank mind.
Bottom of the Ladder
When I first started, I worked for peanuts, I thought earning something little was better than nothing. My ex had left and I had helped him with his business, but I was determined I could start again and that I was going to make it. My anxiety was high, I had very few boundaries in my business, I was walked over, I was scammed, I worked when people wanted me to work, early in the morning or late at night, I took boarders into my home, nothing motivates you like needing to eat.
I was so poor I was unable to study the extra courses that I wanted to study in order to increase my skills. All my money went on surviving.
I probably could have received Government assistance, but I knew if I went down that path, it would affect my sense of being able to do it on my own. I also really didn’t want to work for someone else. I found it hard in the past to work for a boss and do it someone else’s way, after running a household for twenty something years.
Heading On Up
Slowly I managed to create more of a buffer between myself and the bread line. Slowly but surely I managed to set better boundaries, increase my prices, learnt how to deal with clients in a way that supported myself, work my way up to the point where I am now, having just gotten rid of a few of my lower priced services.
I now do one session a day and use the rest of the day to study and increase my knowledge base. I can spend more time relaxing. I just had my first real break away from my business over Xmas. Not that you can ever fully switch off being self employed but I’m taking more time out now. And I decided that this year, every school holidays I will take time off as well.
Room To Breathe
The last of my boarders is leaving in two weeks and my landlord has just raised my rent significantly. And I’m not bothered. I eat the foods I want now, can buy the extras that I need, I can study the courses I want, I have worked through buying household items and replacing older items that I lost in the relationship break up.
My health has suffered, I was perhaps a workaholic, and obsessive, but I was scared of not being able to succeed. I suffered terribly from adrenal fatigue through some of it. As a healer you have to be really careful not to end up with burnout. My self care is way better now.
I’m very proud that I could go from zero to self employed, all the while enduring 2 years of massive earthquakes, and with an anxiety disorder.
You may ask what time frame I’m speaking of? Well it’s been 4 years now, but after 3 years is when I really started to feel I could relax and ease up.
I learnt how to create websites, and how to market myself. I increased my skill set, and met some great people along the way. I now can pay and delegate more time consuming jobs, in my business and my personal life.
I don’t feel I’m a naturally gifted Intuitive. I’ve had to work at my craft.
If I can do it. So can you.
What have I said that has inspired you to meet the challenge you face?