Do You Suffer From Low Energy, Chronic Fatigue, Epstein Barr and other Energy Sapping Maladies?
Chronic Fatigue has been like the background hum to my life, at times it’s featured full on, at other times it’s just persisted, but it’s often been there.
At times it feels like depression, at other times it feels like adrenal fatigue, perhaps even fibromyalgia, where joints and muscles hurts.
I always thought that I just had a weak immune system, perhaps it was because I had periods in hospital as a child and they would have pumped me full of antibiotics, perhaps it’s because I’m sensitive and so I get drained very easy.
A pattern I have come to notice is that if I go through any kind of trauma, then chronic fatigue will rear it’s head for some time to come. It’s not just from stress, it’s something more.
In studying Meta Health I have come to learn of a pattern called “Damned If I Do, Damned If I Don’t”. It means that you find yourself in a situation where if you move forward it seems a bad outcome and if you stay where you are it’s equally as miserable.
And physically the outcome of this mindset is feeling emotionally and physically stuck in a place of fatigue. It’s like having one foot on the brake and one foot on the accelerator. You don’t want to move forward and you feel stuck where you are. So it feels like having to force yourself to function because moving forward feels like a bad outcome. Staying where you are feels like a bad out come as well.
An example for me in my life which I have talked about a lot on this blog is having an abortion. For me being pregnant and having a child in my situation I saw as unbearable, and having an abortion seemed like a horrible thing to have to do, but I felt I had no other choice. I felt “Damned If I Did, Damned If I Didn’t”.
Not everyone has that view on situations, other people might have seen having an abortion as the only possible solution and it resolved the situation, someone else might have seen the whole thing differently again. That’s how I saw it.
Another example is in being able to feel and own all your feelings about a situation. If you live in an environment where your feelings aren’t welcome, or you’re going through trauma, you are damned if you share them, and damned if you don’t. So you’re stuck in a sort of limbo where you can’t complete and resolve something for yourself.
There are other sequences of events that can also lead to these energy sapping maladies which my Meta Health teacher Richard Flook talks about here.
Can you spot this conflict in your life and see the energetic stalemate in your body?